| LASTS... Today, my friends, is my LAST day of work! I am so excited about that. I'm tired of waking up so darn early. Tonight- friends are coming to town!!! It's my LAST weekend in the states, a week before my birthday, AND Bluffton Street Fair. I am SO excited to see/spend time with everyone before I leave. Alright, so I can't describe how I feel right now. I am leaving the country, my family, and friends in like 5 days and I'm actually pretty relaxed about it all. I've been so extremely busy lately doing last-minute things like setting up accounts, e-mailing people, thank-you letters, packing, shopping...it all feels very surreal. For example, before I left for Phoenix I was SO extremely sad and emotional. But lately- other than a few stressed moments of tears- I haven't been emotional. I'm sure I will be. I'm sure it will all kick in at some point. I'm just wondering when that moment will come. And how I'll handle it when it shows its ugly face. I believe this will be my LAST Xanga post from this site for a bit. When I arrive in England I'll start posting from: http://www.xanga.com/England_Is_Calling. However, anything TOO personal I'll probably still post on here. I don't want everyone knowing my deepest, darkest thoughts:) Yeah, so I'll leave this Xanga with something I wrote in my YWAM Application. Kinda cool to look back to where it all started... What is your purpose in attending a DTS? Well, I obviously want to grow closer in my relationship to the Lord. I’ve always felt a call to mission work (in some capacity), but have had trouble figuring out what exactly that call means for my life. So I went to college, followed one of my passions (Sign Language-Interpreting), and graduated. But now that I’ve been out of school for a year and working, am still somewhat young and single- I’ve begun to feel like I have this amazing “window of opportunity” to go out and serve God in a way I’ve never done before. I just haven’t been content this past year, for whatever reason. I recently read “Red Moon Rising” and it definitely refreshed my spiritual fervor/life. You may have heard of it, but it’s basically a story about the power of prayer in the younger “church” generation which exists today. It also features some bios of people who are totally doing drastic ministries in their service to God. So all this has brought me to a point in which I am re-focusing on the importance of prayer, and have been spending a lot more one-on-one time with the Lord. This time has also brought me to the conclusion that for now- God wants me involved in something like your DTS program. I am completely excited about the future and where God is taking me, although at this point- it is unknown. I just hope that through this DTS, I will be able to grow closer to the Lord, solidify my faith in ways I haven’t before, learn how to better relate to people of other cultures, and serve God and people who are in desperate need of His Light. |
